Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Terrifying Exorcism in Gary Indiana – Latoya Ammons

Demon Gary Indiana

Photo Taken by Police Officer Showing Demon in Window

We’ve all heard of some pretty sensational stuff regarding exorcisms or demonically possessed people.  This case is terrifying to read and what is even more scary is that in one of the instances, a boy was seen walking backwards up a wall to the roof by a psychiatrist, social worker, and nurse, as well as the boys family.  It is a case that sounds sensationalized until you hear the interview with the Catholic Exorcist who performed multiple exorcisms on the family.  The Gary police were also involved and many of the officers took photos of the house and images of shadowy people showed up in the photos.  One of the officers heard a voice speaking when he replayed the video he took of the house.  As I did some research on this exorcism, I learned that the activity occurred back in 2012 and that after the mother and the children began to experience scary things in their house.. they invited clairvoyants into their home and carried out an exorcism of the house with the clairvoyants help.  The mother said that it was 3 days after that house blessing that the truly evil things began. What is interesting to note is that in cases of true possession, when the protestants realize they are outmatched, where do they go?  They call a Catholic Priest! Here is the story from the Indianapolis paper:

A woman and three children who claimed to be possessed by demons. A 9-year-old boy walking backward up a wall in the presence of a family case manager and hospital nurse. Gary police Capt. Charles Austin said it was the strangest story he had ever heard. Austin, a 36-year veteran of the Gary Police Department, said he initially thought Indianapolis resident Latoya Ammons and her family concocted an elaborate tale as a way to make money. But after several visits to their home and interviews with witnesses, Austin said simply, “I am a believer.”

Not everyone involved with the family was inclined to believe its incredible story. And many readers will find Ammons’ supernatural claims impossible to accept. But, whatever the cause of the creepy occurrences that befell the family — whether they were seized by a systematic delusion or demonic possession — it led to one of the most unusual cases ever handled by the Department of Child Services. Many of the events are detailed in nearly 800 pages of official records obtained by The Indianapolis Star and recounted in more than a dozen interviews with police, DCS personnel, psychologists, family members and a Catholic priest.  Ammons, who swears by her story, has been unusually open. While she spoke on condition her children not be interviewed or named, she signed releases letting The Star review medical, psychological and official records that are not open to the public — and not always flattering. Furthermore, the family’s story is made only more bizarre because it involves a DCS intervention, a string of psychological evaluations, a police investigation and, ultimately, a series of exorcisms.  It’s a tale, they say, that started with flies.

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In November 2011, Ammons’ family moved into a rental house on Carolina Street in Gary, a quiet lane lined with small one-story homes. Big black flies suddenly swarmed their screened-in porch in December, despite the winter chill.  ”This is not normal,” Ammons’ mother, Rosa Campbell, remembers thinking. “We killed them and killed them and killed them, but they kept coming back.” There were other strange happenings, too.  After midnight, Campbell and Ammons both said, they occasionally heard the steady clump of footsteps climbing the basement stairs and the creak of the door opening between the basement and kitchen. No one was there.  Even after they locked the door, the noise continued.  Campbell said she awoke one night and saw a shadowy figure of a man pacing her living room. She leaped out of bed to investigate, and found large, wet bootprints.  On March 10, 2012, Campbell said, the family’s unease turned to fear.

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It was about 2 a.m. Normally, Campbell, Ammons and her children would have been asleep, but they were mourning the death of a loved one with a group of friends.  Ammons, who was in Campbell’s bedroom, startled everyone by screaming, “Mama! Mama!” Campbell said she ran into her bedroom, where her then-12-year-old granddaughter and a friend were staying. Ammons and Campbell said the 12-year-old was levitating above the bed, unconscious. According to their account of events, Ammons and several others surrounded the girl, praying. Campbell said she remembers being terrified. ”I thought, ‘What’s going on?’ ” Campbell said. ” ‘Why is this happening?’ “ Eventually, Campbell said, her granddaughter descended onto the bed. The girl woke up with no memory of what happened, Campbell said. Campbell and Ammons said the people who were visiting that night refused to return.

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Campbell says she remembers telling her daughter, “We need help. We need to talk to someone who knows how to deal with it.” Campbell and Ammons said they didn’t know exactly what “it” was, but they believed it was something supernatural. They called local churches, but most refused to listen. Eventually, after listening to Campbell and Ammons talk about the house and visiting it, officials at one church told them the Carolina Street house had spirits in it. They recommended the family clean the home with bleach and ammonia, then use oil to draw crosses on every door and window. At the church’s suggestion, Ammons said she poured olive oil on her three children’s hands and feet, then smeared oil in the shape of crosses on their foreheads. Campbell and Ammons also told The Star they reached out to two clairvoyants, who said the family’s home was besieged by more than 200 demons. Their explanation made sense to Campbell and Ammons, they say, because it meshed with their Christian faith. The best thing you can do is move, Ammons remembers the clairvoyants telling her. But moving wasn’t an option for the cash-strapped family.

Instead, Ammons said she took a clairvoyant’s advice and made an altar in the basement. Ammons covered an end table with a white sheet, then placed a white candle and statue of Mary, Joseph and Jesus on it. She opened a Bible to Psalm 91. She said she and another person donned white T-shirts and wound white scarves around their heads. Also on a clairvoyant’s advice, they burned sage and sulfur throughout the house, starting upstairs and working their way down. The smoke was so thick they could hardly breathe. Ammons drew a cross with the smoke. The person she was with read Psalm 91 aloud as they moved through the house:

“You will not fear the terror of night,

nor the arrow that flies by day,

nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,

nor the plague that destroys at midday.”

Ammons said nothing odd happened for three days. Then, things got worse.  The family said demons possessed Ammons and her children, then ages 7, 9 and 12. The kids’ eyes bulged, evil smiles crossed their faces, and their voices deepened every time it happened, Campbell and Ammons said. The kids’ eyes bulged, evil smiles crossed their faces and their voices deepened every time.  Campbell said the demons didn’t affect her because she was born with protection from evil. She said she, and others like her, have a guardian who protects them.  Ammons said she felt weak, lightheaded and warm when she was possessed. Her body shook, and she said she felt out-of-control.

“You can tell it’s different, something supernatural.”

The youngest boy, then 7, sat in a closet talking to a boy that no one else could see. The other boy was describing what it felt like to be killed. Campbell said the 7-year-old once flew out of the bathroom as if he’d been thrown, and a headboard once smacked into Ammons’ daughter, causing a wound that needed stitches.  The 12-year-old would later tell mental health professionals that she sometimes felt as if she were being choked and held down so she couldn’t speak or move. She said she heard a voice say she’d never see her family again and wouldn’t live another 20 minutes.  Some nights were so bad the family slept at a hotel.

Finally, in desperation, they went to their family physician, Dr. Geoffrey Onyeukwu, on April 19, 2012. Ammons said she told him what they were going through, hoping he might understand.  Onyeukwu told The Star it was “bizarre.”  ”Twenty years, and I’ve never heard anything like that in my life,” he said. “I was scared myself when I walked into the room.” He said he would not speak in more detail unless Ammons had “psychiatric clearance” for the waiver of confidentiality she had signed. In his medical notes about the visit, Onyeukwu wrote “delusions of ghost in home” and “hallucinations.” He also wrote “history of ghost at home” and “delusional.” What Ammons and Campbell say happened next also was detailed in a DCS report of a family case manager’s interviews with medical staff.  Chaos erupted.

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Campbell said Ammons’ sons cursed Onyeukwu in demonic voices, raging at him. Medical staff said the youngest boy was “lifted and thrown into the wall with nobody touching him,” according to a DCS report. The boys abruptly passed out and wouldn’t come to, Campbell added. She cradled one boy in her arms; Ammons held the other.  Someone from the doctor’s office called 911. Onyeukwu said seven or eight police officers and multiple ambulances showed up.  ”Everybody was … they couldn’t figure out exactly what was happening,” he recalled.  Police and emergency personnel took the boys to Methodist Hospital’s campus in Gary.  Ammons said hospital personnel laughed at her desire to anoint her sons in olive oil.  ”I couldn’t talk to them,” she said, “so I talked to God.” The boys woke up in the hospital. The older boy, then 9, acted rationally, but the youngest screamed and thrashed, Campbell said.  She said it took five men to hold him down.

Meanwhile, someone called DCS and asked the agency to investigate Ammons for possible child abuse or neglect. The caller, who is not named in the DCS report, speculated that Ammons might have a mental illness. The person believed the children were performing for Ammons, and she was encouraging their behavior. DCS family case manager Valerie Washington was asked to handle the initial investigation. She gave the following account to police and in her intake officer’s report: Hospital personnel examined Ammons and her children and found them to be healthy and free of marks or bruises. A hospital psychiatrist evaluated Ammons and determined she was of “sound mind.” Washington interviewed the family in the hospital. While she spoke with Ammons, the 7-year-old boy started growling with his teeth showing. His eyes rolled back in his head. The boy locked his hands around his older brother’s throat and refused to let go until adults pried his hands open. Later that evening, Washington and registered nurse Willie Lee Walker brought the two boys into a small exam room for an interview. Campbell joined them. The 7-year-old stared into his brother’s eyes and began to growl again. ”It’s time to die,” the boy said in a deep, unnatural voice. “I will kill you.” While the youngest boy spoke, the older brother started head-butting Campbell in the stomach. Campbell grabbed her grandson’s hands and started praying. What happened next would rattle the witnesses, and to some it would offer not only evidence but proof of paranormal activity.

“It’s time to die,” the boy said in a deep, unnatural voice. “I will kill you.”

According to Washington’s original DCS report — an account corroborated by Walker, the nurse — the 9-year-old had a “weird grin” and walked backward up a wall to the ceiling. He then flipped over Campbell, landing on his feet. He never let go of his grandmother’s hand.

“He walked up the wall, flipped over her and stood there,” Walker told The Star. “There’s no way he could’ve done that.” Later, police asked Washington whether the boy had run up the wall, as though performing an acrobatic trick. No, Washington told them. She said the boy “glided backward on the floor, wall and ceiling,” according to a police report. Washington did not respond to The Star’s requests for comment. But she told police she was scared when it happened and ran out of the room. As for Walker, Washington said, “he ran out of the room with me.”

“We didn’t know what was going on,” Walker told The Star. “That was crazy. I was like, ‘Everybody gotta go.’” According to Washington’s report, they told a doctor what happened. The doctor, who did not believe them, asked the boy to walk up the wall again.  Walker said he told the doctor he doubted the boy could repeat the feat. “This kid was not himself when he did that,” Walker said. The boy said he didn’t remember what happened and couldn’t do it, according to Washington’s report. Walker, who said he previously believed in demons and spirits, thought the boy’s behavior had “some demonic spirit to it” but also was the result of a mental illness. A police report quoted Washington saying she believed there could be an “evil influence” affecting the family.

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Ammons said she spent the night at the hospital with her 7-year-old son while Campbell took Ammons’ daughter and older son to a relative’s home in Gary. The next day was Ammons’ youngest son’s eighth birthday. Ammons said DCS officials asked Campbell to bring the older children back to the hospital, presumably to talk more about what happened. The family celebrated the boy’s birthday by singing and eating a miniature cake. Then, Ammons said Washington told them the children wouldn’t be going home. DCS took the emergency step of taking custody of the children without a court order. ”All of the children were expericing (sic) spiritual and emotional distress,” Washington wrote in the DCS form. Ammons told The Star she and her children cried because they didn’t want to be separated. ”We’d already been through so much and fought so hard for our lives,” she recalled. “It was obvious we were a team, and we were beating it — whatever we were fighting. We made it through together as a team, and they separated us.”

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The Rev. Michael Maginot was leading Bible study in his living room the morning of April 20, 2012, when he received a call from a hospital chaplain. Maginot had been the priest at St. Stephen, Martyr Parish, in Merrillville for more than 10 years but had never received a request like this one — the chaplain asked him to perform an exorcism on Ammons’ 9-year-old son. Maginot agreed to interview the family after Sunday Mass a few days later. The first step, Maginot said, was ruling out natural causes for what Ammons and her family said they were experiencing. He visited Ammons and Campbell in the Carolina Street home April 22, 2012. For two hours, Ammons and Campbell detailed the phenomena for him. Then, Campbell interrupted the interview to point out a flickering bathroom light. The flickering stopped each time Maginot walked over to investigate — which he attributed to a demonic presence.

“It must be scared of me,” he later told The Star he had thought. The interview was interrupted again when Campbell pointed out Venetian blinds in the kitchen swinging even though there was no air current. Maginot said he also saw wet footprints throughout the living room. Ammons complained about having a headache. Maginot said she convulsed when he placed a crucifix against her head.  After a four-hour interview, Maginot said he was convinced the family was being tormented by demons. He said he also believed there were ghosts in the house.  Maginot blessed the house before he left — praying, reading from the Bible and sprinkling holy water in each room. He told Ammons and Campbell to leave because it wasn’t safe. They temporarily moved in with a relative.

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But less than a week later, the two women were back on Carolina Street to let Washington, the DCS family case manager, check the condition of the home. Washington asked a Lake County police officer to come with her.  Two other officers, one each from Gary and Hammond police departments, asked to join them out of “professional curiosity.” Ammons refused to go inside, but Campbell agreed to accompany the group. Ammons’ kids still were in DCS custody. The main floor had three bedrooms, a living room, one bathroom, hardwood floors and a small, open-style kitchen. A door in the kitchen led to a basement with concrete floors. Directly under the stairs was a dirt floor. The concrete around it was jagged, as though it had been broken. The makeshift altar Ammons had created was still in place, along with rings of salt she had poured against the basement walls to “dissuade the demons,” according to aHammond Police Department report. Campbell told officers that demons seemed to emanate from beneath the stairs. Austin, the Gary police captain, was one of those officers. He later told The Star he believed in ghosts and the supernatural but said he didn’t believe in demons. Austin said he changed his mind after visiting the Carolina Street house.

During the interview with Campbell, one of the officer’s audio recorders malfunctioned, according to Austin and Hammond police records. The power light flashed to indicate the batteries were dying, even though the officer had placed fresh batteries in the recorder earlier that day. Another officer recorded audio and, when he played it back later, heard an unknown voice whisper “hey,” according to Lake County police records. That officer also took photos of the house. In one photo of the basement stairs, there was a cloudy white image in the upper right-hand corner. When an officer enlarged the photo, that cloud appeared to resemble a face, Lake County police records state. The enlargement also revealed a second, green image that police say looked like a female. Austin said photos he snapped with his iPhone also seemed to have strange silhouettes in them. The radio in his police-issued Ford malfunctioned on the way home.  Later, Austin said the garage at his Gary home refused to open, even though the power was on everywhere else.

Austin said the driver’s seat in his personal 2005 Infiniti also started moving backward and forward on its own. He said he had the car checked at a dealership, and the mechanic told him the motor on the driver’s seat was broken, which the mechanic said could have caused a distraction leading to an accident. Austin said he found himself starting to believe Ammons’ claims of paranormal activity. But the mental health professionals evaluating Ammons and her children remained skeptical.

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In April 2012, DCS petitioned Lake Juvenile Court for temporary wardship of the three children. The request was granted. DCS found that Ammons neglected her children’s education by not having them in school regularly. The agency made the same finding in 2009, its records show. Ammons told Washington there were times she could not send the kids to school because “the spirits would make them sick, or they would be up all night without sleep.” DCS temporarily placed her daughter and older son at St. Joseph’s Carmelite Home in East Chicago. Ammons’ youngest son was sent to Christian Haven in Wheatfield for a psychiatric evaluation. Clinical psychologist Stacy Wright, who evaluated Ammons’ youngest son, said the boy tended to act possessed when he was challenged, redirected or asked questions he didn’t want to answer. In her evaluation, Wright wrote that he seemed coherent and logical except when he talked about demons. It was then that the 8-year-old’s stories became “bizarre, fragmented and illogical,” Wright said. His stories changed each time he told them. He also changed the subject, quizzing Wright on math problems and asking her about outer space.

“Can you die if you go to space?” he asked. “How do you get to space? Do you have to wear a helmet and suit?” Wright believed the 8-year-old did not suffer from a true psychotic disorder. ”This appears to be an unfortunate and sad case of a child who has been induced into a delusional system perpetuated by his mother and potentially reinforced” by other relatives, she wrote in her psychological evaluation. Clinical psychologist Joel Schwartz, who evaluated Ammons’ daughter and older son, came to a similar conclusion. ”There also appears to be a need to assess the extent to which (Ammons’ daughter) may have been unduly influenced by her mother’s concerns that the family was exposed to paranormal experiences,” Schwartz wrote.  Ammons’ daughter told Schwartz that she saw shadowy figures in the Carolina Street home. She also said she twice went into trances. Ammons’ older son told Schwartz that “doors would slam and stuff started moving around.”

Ammons also was examined several times by psychologists, who said she was “guarded,” but did not seem to be “experiencing symptoms of psychosis or thought disorder.” One psychologist recommended Ammons be assessed to “determine whether her religiosity may be masking underlying delusional ideations or perceptual disturbances.” Ammons — and all three kids — continued to insist they were possessed by demons. DCS set goals for the family. One of them stipulated that the children “not discuss demons and being possessed and … take responsibility for their actions.” They also needed to participate in therapy to address past behavior. While DCS officials credited Ammons for sharing a “close bond” with her children, the agency also said she needed to use “alternate forms of discipline not directly related to religion and demon possession,” according to DCS’ case plan. Appropriate discipline included encouragement, rules and withholding privileges. She could work on those goals during supervised visits with the children. Ammons also had to find a job and appropriate housing “due to the paranormal activity” at the house on Carolina Street. While Ammons worked on meeting those objectives, police and DCS officials continued to investigate strange happenings in the house.

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The group was a bit larger this time. Campbell, Ammons, Austin and the two other police officers from the initial visit went back to the Carolina Street home on the afternoon of May 10, 2012. The police officers visited after work hours. They were joined by Maginot, two Lake County officers with a police dog and DCS family case manager Samantha Ilic. Ilic, who was there in an official capacity, told The Star she volunteered to go in Washington’s place because Washington didn’t want to go back to the house.  A county officer took his police dog around the home, but the dog didn’t show interest in any particular area, according to Lake County police records. Everyone else headed into the basement. Ilic touched some strange liquid she saw dripping in the basement, and said it felt slippery yet sticky between her fingers. Maginot told police he wanted to check the dirt under the stairs for a pentagram or personal objects that might have been cursed. He said a pentagram might indicate a demonic presence and possible portal to hell, according to a Lake County police report.

Or if someone had died in the house and was buried under the stairs, it could explain paranormal activity, Maginot added. One of the police officers dug a 4-foot by 3-foot hole beneath the stairs, unearthing a pink press-on fingernail, a white pair of panties, a political shirt pin, a lid for a small cooking pan, socks with the bottoms cut off below the ankles, candy wrappers and a heavy metal object that looked like a weight for a drapery cord, police records state. Finding nothing else, the officer replaced the dirt and raked over it. Maginot blessed some salt, which he said is a barrier to evil, and spread it under the stairs and throughout the basement.  Ilic said she was later standing in the living room with the rest of the group when her left pinky finger started to tingle and whiten. She complained it felt broken. Less than 10 minutes later, Ilic said she felt as if she was having a panic attack. She couldn’t breathe, so she walked outside to wait for the group.

When the priest started questioning Ammons inside the house, she complained of a headache and shoulder pain, according to police records. She joined Ilic outside. Austin said he left the house at nightfall. Austin — who has been shot at and has investigated murders, rapes and armed robberies during his more than three decades on the force — said he wasn’t staying in the house past dark. The other officers continued to walk through the home. On the main floor, they noticed an oil-like substance dripping from venetian blinds in a bedroom but couldn’t figure out where it was coming from, police records state.  To make sure Campbell or Ammons hadn’t poured oil on the blinds, two of the officers used paper towels to clean it off. The officers sealed the room for 25 minutes and stood nearby so no one could walk in. When they went back in, the oil had reappeared, according to police records.  Maginot told police the liquid was a manifestation of a paranormal or demonic presence.  He wrote a report detailing his findings and asked Bishop Dale Melczek’s permission to perform an exorcism on Ammons.

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Maginot said Melczek had never authorized an exorcism in 21 years (This is a BIG Problem.. Bishops who don’t believe in the devil or believe exorcism are outdated!!) as bishop of the Diocese of Gary. Debbie Bosak, director of communications for the diocese, said she cannot comment on whether Melczek has ever approved an exorcism for confidentiality reasons. In general, she said, such an action would require a bishop’s approval.  Melczek initially denied Maginot’s request to do a church-sanctioned exorcism, Maginot said. The bishop told Maginot to contact other priests who have performed exorcisms.  Maginot said he needed other priests to give him the ritual for a minor exorcism, which does not require church approval. The priests he consulted told him to look it up on the Internet. (Another bad thing.. no exorcist in the diocese, no one with experience for this problem) He said he did an “intense blessing” on the Carolina Street home to expel bad spirits.

That same day, Maginot performed a minor exorcism on Ammons. The ritual consisted of prayers, statements and appeals to cast out demons. Two police officers and Ilic, the DCS family case manager, attended the ritual.  Ilic said she left believing that something was going on, although she wouldn’t go as far as saying it was demonic. She said she got chills during the nearly two-hour rite. ”We felt like someone was in the room with you, someone breathing down your neck.” Ilic said she had a string of medical problems after visiting the home. A week after she visited the house for the last time, Ilic said she got third-degree burns from a motorcycle. Within 30 days, she also broke three ribs Jet Skiing, broke a hand when she hit a table, then broke an ankle running in flip-flops. ”I had friends who wouldn’t talk to me because they believed that something had attached itself to me,” Ilic said. Her joking response: “I’m already evil. They try to find something that’s not evil and corrupt it. They wouldn’t waste their time on me.”  “We felt like someone was in the room with you, someone breathing down your neck.”

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After the minor ritual, Maginot told Ammons to look up the names of demons that were tormenting her. Each demon has a name and personality, Maginot said. A name has power, the priest added, and he planned to use those names to fight the demons during the exorcisms.  Ammons said she and a friend looked up the demons’ names online by searching for demons that represented the problems the family had been having. The computer kept shutting down. She said she felt sick, lightheaded.  But she said they found names that fit.  One such name was Beelzebub, lord of the flies, Ammons said. She said they also found names of demons that torture and hurt kids, which she felt explained what happened in the Carolina Street house.  Ammons said other high-ranking demons also were assigned to her, including lieutenants and sergeants.  After the minor rite, Maginot said Bishop Melczek gave him permission to exorcise Ammons. The ritual is the same as the minor exorcism but more powerful because it has the backing of the Catholic Church, Maginot said.

Maginot ultimately performed three major exorcisms on Ammons – two in English, and the last one in Latin – in June 2012 at his Merrillville church. During each, Maginot said, he praised God and condemned the devil. He pressed a crucifix against Ammons’ head as he spoke.

I cast you out, unclean spirit,

along with every Satanic power of the enemy,

every spectre from hell,

and all your fell companions;

in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Maginot said his voice continued to get louder and more forceful until the demon weakened. He said he could tell how strong the demon was by how much Ammons convulsed. Two police officers, who had kept in touch with Maginot since the home investigation, stood nearby in case Ammons needed to be restrained. Ammons said she prayed with Maginot until it became too painful.  She said she felt as if something inside her was trying to hold on and inflict pain at the same time. She said it was different from a natural pain but felt as intense as giving birth.  ”I was hurting all over from the inside out,” she remembered. “I’m trying to do my best and be strong.”  Eventually, Maginot said, Ammons fell asleep. She said that was the demon’s way of lessening the ritual’s effect.

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In between the second and third exorcisms, Maginot said he went on a retreat. A woman who assisted Maginot with some of the exorcisms helped set up a backup plan in case Ammons had problems while Maginot was gone. The woman wrote a long demon name — Maginot said he can’t remember which one it was — on a piece of paper and tucked it in an envelope, then she surrounded it with blessed salt.  If Ammons had problems, the woman would burn the envelope, Maginot said. By this time, Ammons and her mother had moved to Indianapolis, but they drove back for the exorcisms and court hearings, as her children were still in DCS’ care.  Maginot said he blessed the family’s new home to prevent more problems.  But Ammons called while Maginot was on his retreat, complaining of bad dreams, so the woman burned the envelope. She saved the ashes to burn later in a church bonfire. After that, Ammons said, her nightmares ended.

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In the final exorcism at the end of June 2012, Maginot said he prayed and berated the demons in Latin, rather than English.  Police officers did not attend, so Maginot said his brother stood guard. Maginot said Ammons convulsed while he condemned the demons but did not convulse during prayer. When she fell asleep, he said words of thanksgiving. It would be the last time Ammons saw Maginot. She and her mother drove back to Indianapolis, where they say they now live without fear. Ammons’ old home on Carolina Street became an object of local curiosity — so much so that the owner and landlord, Charles Reed, called the Gary Police Department to ask officers to stop driving by the house because it was scaring his new tenant.

He said there were no problems in the home before or after Ammons and her family lived there. ”I thought I heard it all,” said Reed, who’s been a landlord for 33 years. “This was a new one to me. My belief system has a hard time jumping over that bridge.” When told of the Catholic Church’s involvement in the situation, however, Reed said that made him “less skeptical.” Ammons regained custody of her three children in November 2012, about six months after they’d been removed. DCS continued to check in on the children and make sure they were going to school until the case was closed last February. Ammons called her children’s return the happiest day of her life. She said they screamed and jumped up and down when she picked them up from the DCS office in Gary. ”It was just awesome,” Ammons said. “I hadn’t been that happy in God knows how long.”

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Sr. Megan Rice SHCJ facing Life in Prison – LCWR

sr. megan rice SHCJA year ago I wrote about a crazy religious sister who had broken into a nuclear weapons plant to splatter her own blood on the building, graffiti the premises with peace signs and anti-war signs, and to try and hammer into the wall.  The sister is Sr. Megan Rice, she and two other strange men were arrested and have been serving in jail since their incarceration.  The judge has refused thus far to let them go on bail until the trial and they are now petitioning for clemency.  You can read my original article here: Blood Splattered Nuclear Silos

Today I opened up the news and saw a new report.  The sister is up for sentencing and she is facing life in prison. Considering her advanced age of 83 years old any sentence could be longer than what the good Lord has given her.

The article below has been taken from Catholic News USA:

Sister Megan Rice is one of three Catholic peace activists convicted of sabotage last year after they broke into the nuclear weapons plant in Oak Ridge, Tenn. Sentencing for all three is scheduled for 9 a.m. Tuesday at U.S. District Court in Knoxville.

The government has recommended sentences of about six to nine years each for Rice, Michael Walli and Greg Boertje-Obed. It also is seeking restitution of nearly $53,000 for damage incurred when the three cut through fences and painted slogans on the outside wall of the uranium processing plant. The protesters also splattered blood and hammered on the wall.

The activists are asking for leniency. They say their actions at the Y-12 National Security Complex were symbolic and meant to draw attention to America’s stockpile of nuclear weapons, which they call immoral and illegal.

When I did some research on Sister Megan Rice I found her religious order.  She belongs to the Society of the Holy Child Jesus.  The order was founded in 1846 by Venerable Cornelia Connelly.  The foundress must be devastated at the sight of her order today.  The order was founded to be a teaching order and to take care of the sick and dying.  It wasn’t founded to break into nuclear plants, damage other peoples property, promote new age movements and it certainly wasn’t founded to be an order filled to the brim with old ladies not living out their vocations.  The orders average age is now around 70 yrs old if that tells you anything about the wonderful work they are doing to enrich their own lives.  I found a great picture of the sisters soon after their founding and spliced it together with a current image of Sister Megan Rice.  Tell me what you see is different.

Sr. Megan Rice SHCJ

People can’t have it both ways.. you are either peace loving and kind or your not.  You can’t say that you are promoting peace and then justify breaking into a govt facility to pour vials of your own blood on nuclear silos.  Is this really what Venerable Cornelia had in mind when she created the order?  I remember many years ago, some liberal Bishops were trying to seize the reigns of EWTN and Mother Angelica when asked about them taking control she said “I’ll burn the damn thing down before I let them have it”.  I think Venerable Cornelia would say the same thing in this case if she knew that the liberal facist LCWR nutty women were one day going to rule her beautiful order and destroy it along with the souls of countless others all in the name of social justice.

Pray for Sister Megan Rice.. pray for her conversion.

God Love & God Bless,

Michael

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Friday, January 24, 2014

Penny Lord – Obituary

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Please pray for her soul! 

In Loving Memory of Penny Lord

Originally seen on: Penny Lord Obituary

Penny Lord was born Pauline Eve Macaluso on September 23, 1928. Her father said she brought about the Depression.

She grew up in a faith-filled Italian home in Brooklyn, New York. Her Father was a civil servant. Her mother worked on a sewing machine in one of the many clothing factories in New York. She had two brothers who were both older than she. They both considered her the brat of the family. Not true; not true.

She attended a local public school in Brooklyn, and when the family moved to Richmond Hills in Queens County, she went to Richmond Hills High School. She excelled in that school, was a member of the Arista Society, which were all the brains, an honor she took very seriously all her life. When she graduated, she received as many awards possible for one student that year.
She had plans to attend a University in Chicago to study law, but because she graduated in mid-year, January, she went to Davis and Elkins College in Elkins, West Virginia for six months.

She met Bob Lord on her birthday, September 23. She has always said it was her best birthday present. They were both in the American Academy of Dramatic Arts in New York. She was playing a role made famous by Penny Singleton. Our Penny liked the name, and took it as her own. They fill in love, married, and were best friends and lovers for the rest of their lives.

The suffered the death of their son in 1971, from an overdose of drugs. They were both angry with God for letting this happen. After all, they were good Catholics; they all went to Church on Sunday. He went to a good Jesuit High School. They had embraced a group of juvenile delinquents in the Malibu Hills of California, who may have introduced their son to drugs. They left the Church after his death for four years. On January 1, 1975, Feast of the Solemnity of Mary, the Holy Spirit inspired Bob to go back to Church. Penny was still angry with Jesus, but she went back with Bob because that’s what they always did, follow each other. On May 23, 1975, they went on a Marriage Encounter weekend in Santa Barbara, California, that’s when their lives changed forever. Penny reconciled with Jesus. Bob and Penny found a new way of life through the Church.

As a part of their newfound love for the Church, the Lord directed them to take a pilgrimage the Holy Land and Europe. It was more like a tour of holy places, but put in their hearts a great desire to seek out and venerate the various shrines of the Catholic Church, especially ones that had to do with Miracles of the Eucharist.

They started bringing their own pilgrimages overseas; it was very successful. Penny provided the love and Bob was the eternal tour guide. It was very successful until terrorism broke out in the Middle guide. People stayed away from the pilgrimage places, especially the Holy Land. They had invested all their savings into a Travel Agency, Catalogs, and advertising. Things looked bad.

Penny said the Lord told them not to worry. They had a treasure. Bob responded with “Will you ask him what the treasure is? We can’t make our mortgage payment.” She insisted they had a treasure. Shortly thereafter, she told him the Lord wanted Bob to write a book on the Miracles of the Eucharist. They had never written or published anything before. Penny locked Bob in a cubby hole in their office and told him to write. He could only come out for meals and potty breaks. She and their daughter Luz Elena fought off the bill collectors with one hand, and sought out potential publishers for the book they were writing. She became the editor from Hell!
The book was very successful, but it never would have happened without Penny. So in effect, she began her writing career with that first book that they really co-wrote. After that, they co-wrote 25 books on the Catholic Faith over a period of 26years. It was that first book that brought them to the attention of Catholic Television through Mother Angelica and the Eternal Word Television Network in Birmingham, Alabama. They had their first interview with Mother Angelica in December of 1986, and the following year began making television series on their books. They have been on the network 5 days a week for the last 26 years, and continued to be shown, the closing message “We Love You” came from Penny.

During her career, she co-hosted over 200 television programs which are shown on EWTN to this day. It has been said that on their programs and lectures, Penny said all things of the heart. Bob was always involved in the facts of a program of subject. This carried out throughout their entire career as authors, lecturers and television hosts. That was the way she was. Bob always considered Penny his showcase.

In the year 2000, the Lord inspired her to build Holy Family Mission in Morrilton, Arkansas, on 83 acres of land donated by Marie and William Freyaldenhoven. They have added a replica of the Holy House of Loreto and a Retreat Center on the property.

Penny always wanted to write books about meaningful subjects, their life together in the early days of their writing, in We Came Back to Jesus and The Journey and the Dream, and their last book together, Heroes- Popes in Hard Times, which dealt with enemies like Napoleon, Hitler, Mussolini and the like. These books were very important to Penny. They dealt with her life with her husband Bob, and the heart of our Church.
In 2004, Penny and Bob were inducted into Who’s Who in America. Penny and Bob were given the prestigious Poverello Award, the highest award given by Franciscan University at Steubenville, in September, 2001. They were also given a special award by the Polish Film Festival for a documentary they did on St. Maxmillian Kolbe.

Penny is survived by her husband of 55 years, Bob, her Grandson Rob Ziminsky and his wife Andrea, and their two children Matthew and Mark of Illinois, her daughter Clare Parker, her husband Bobby, and daughter Christiana of South Carolina and her adopted son and daughter, Luz Elena Sandoval-Lord and Raymond Joseph (Brother Joseph) Freyaldenhoven of Holy Family Mission in Morrilton, Arkansas.

Funeral Mass: 10:00 a.m. Monday, January 27, at Sacred Heart Catholic Church with Father Jack Harris officiating. Burial will be at Holy Family Mission Cemetery by Harris Funeral Home of Morrilton. Rosary will be Sunday, January 26, from 6:00 to 7:00 p.m. with visitation to follow until 8:30 p.m. at Sacred Heart Catholic Church.

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Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Moving Server

Hey,

I just wanted to put out a quick note.  Due to a server over load today I am moving my site to a different server on my hosting account. I’ve purchased a VPS and will be moving the site shortly.  While the move is ongoing, the site will be live.  But due to the high traffic right now from the Penny Lord post earlier today, the site will be sporadic.

Thanks for your patience!

God Bless!

Michael



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Penny Lord Has Died – Her Final Journey Home

penny lordFor any Catholic or non Catholic Christian who has watched EWTN over the years you have seen the iconic Bob & Penny Lord series.  Bob and Penny Lord were world renowned travelers that brought the secrets, joys, and wonders of Catholicism to the living rooms of millions of people during their lives.  Estimates of the number of souls that they redeemed and saved through their ministry is likely in the tens of thousands or more.  I just received news that Penny Lord has passed away.  She died last night January 21st at 8:32pm.  She suffered from a long illness that brought about her holy death last night.  I for one loved all her and Bob’s books.  She was a light in the darkness to many and she will be missed.

Penny was always solid in her theology and understanding of Church teaching.  If you haven’t read any of her books or watched her videos.  You need to get your hands on some of her awe inspiring literature. You can find her works here: Penny Lord For a time in the lives of Bob & Penny they had left the Church after the untimely death of their son, only to return at the beckoning call of Our Lord.  They were two dearly devoted people who spent their lives serving God and converting souls.  I pray that Penny receives her just award in heaven.  May the angels guide her into the arms our Jesus.

I will update my blog as I hear more news on her death. Eternal rest grant unto Penny Lord O’ God and may perpetual light shine upon her. May she rest in peace.

God Love & God Bless,

Michael

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Sunday, January 19, 2014

Why Did Medjugorje Commission Take So Long to Complete? Verdict?

I just saw this great post from the blog: http://ift.tt/Kvyer9 Please take some time to soak in all the good info and pray for a swift judgement from Holy Mother Church concerning this 30+ year ongoing confusion that has sent many souls on a mad journey of seeking miracles and visions and creating rampant disobedience to the Church and her authority.  

Preface: Pray for truth and rejoice carefully!

I believe the Holy See is concerned with seeking the truth on Medjugorje, not an outcome that appeals to one group or another. Truth cannot co-exist with untruth. Co-workers of truth seek it no matter where it leads and regardless of the pain it may cause. When truth prevails, there are no losers among truth-seekers; rather, there are some people disappointed that what they hoped was true, was deemed untrue.  Therefore, our prayer should not be for approval or disapproval, but for truth to be found and for truth to be conveyed by the Holy See.

I think it is worth mentioning something else. When the Holy Father answers the question of Medjugorje, some will be very happy and some will be very unhappy.  It is contrary to virtue to rejoice in the suffering of others (Proverbs 24:17, Obadiah 1:12).  No matter where you stand on this, please keep that in mind when the Holy Father speaks.  Faithful Catholics on both sides of the divide have a great love for the Blessed Virgin Mary, and for the Church.  The disagreement is whether it is Mother of Our Lord who is appearing to anyone associated with Medjugorje.

Why so long?

The alleged apparitions in Medjugorje began in June of 1981, so why has it taken so long for the Church to get to the eve of answering the question of Medjugorje?  You will see variations of that question in online discussions whenever the topic is at hand.

I cannot read the minds of the hierarchy, but there are some things I’ve taken into consideration that may be useful to others. We are now waiting on the findings of the international commission of inquiry on Medjugorje to make its way from the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith (CDF) to the Holy Father. There has been no mention as to how long the CDF will keep it, or whether any part of it will be released to the public.  One thing I do hope for is that a certain amount of catechesis will accompany any statements.

Here are those considerations on why I believe it has taken so long:

  1. The visions are ongoing
  2. War and the break-up of the former Yugoslav Bishops Conference (YBC)
  3. The aftermath of the war
  4. There is more than Medjugorje of concern to Bosnia-Herzegovina (BiH) bishops

In addition, a few words on these subjects

  • The Diocese of Mostar-Duvno is a valid source for information
  • Names and faces of the bishops of Bosnia-Herzegovina

1. The visions are ongoing

Many will say that the Church has let this go for so long because the visions are still ongoing. In fact, this is almost a sole reason we see people put forth.  They might even argue that no definitive judgement can be made until the visions are done.  But, we know this is not true because many alleged apparitions have been judged as not supernatural while they were still happening. So negative judgments can come any time for the good of the faithful.  On the other hand, an alleged apparition would never be approved while ongoing because if the entity began talking about a “fourth person” of the Trinity, after such approval, the credibility of the Church would suffer great harm.

Sometimes the Church cannot affirm supernaturality, but also does not have sufficient evidence to determine that there is fraud, or diabolical involvement.  Because the question is open, historically – at least until Medjugorje – bishops have been careful not to do anything that could lend credibility, especially giving visionaries a platform on Church property. This was a point made recently to US bishops by the CDF.

Of course, if the Church does find evidence of fraud or diabolical involvement, or other explanation, the Holy See technically could not allow it to continue, even if some good was coming from it (Veritatis Splendor 75).  Moreover, to continue on in the face of any manifestations of falsehood is to participate in a lie, which is no less harmful, even if it comes through omission.  Here again, truth and untruth cannot co-exist.

Not wanting to feed solely on low-hanging fruit, let’s look at some other considerations.

2. War and the break-up of the former YBC

In 1987, the third commission making an inquiry into the events in Medjugorje began, at the level of the bishops conference of the former Yugoslavia, which represented all 23 dioceses.  The reason was given in a joint statement by the president of the YBC, Archbishop Franjo Kuharić and the local ordinary, Bishop Pavao Žanić

On April 10, 1991, the YBC issued the Zadar Declaration, with 19 voting in favor, one abstention, and three absentees, which said:

On the bas[is] of studies made so far, it cannot be affirmed that these matters concern supernatural apparitions or revelations.

In his book, Medjugorje Revisited, Donal Anthony Foley, points out an interesting predicament that surely had been on the minds of the bishops with what was bubbling in the background as they met:

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Around the same time that the statement of the Yugoslav Bishops’ Conference was issued, the political situation in the country began to come to a climax. Franjo Tudjman and Slobodan Milosevic met in early 1991, and decided between them that they would partition Bosnia-Herzegovina, with the Croats to take the northwestern section, the Serbs the southeastern section, with a Muslim buffer zone in the middle. On 25 June 1991, almost exactly ten years after Medjugorje began, both Croatia and Slovenia declared independence. The result of these declarations was that the Yugoslav army, essentially a Serb-run military, invaded Slovenia, thus initiating full-scale hostilities.

Foley, Donal Anthony (2011-10-27). Medjugorje Revisited: 30 Years of Visions or Religious Fraud? (Kindle Locations 4866-4871). Theotokos Books. Kindle Edition.

The war ended in 1995.  I think we can all understand why there was no action from anyone at any level of the Church with regards to answering the question of Medjugorje during this time.  Many churches and monasteries were left in ruins. The cathedral and the bishop’s palace in Mostar were not spared, nor was a library of over 50,000 books housed there. And, that was just the tip of a very big iceberg.

3. The aftermath of the war

Things do not just go back to, “normal,” after a war.  Even today, the ruins are still seen in places by those who travel to the region.  View it through the lens of a Fulbright Scholar living in Mostar.  
A boy runs through Mostar in 1995,
grenades still being lobbed.
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Consider what the four bishops of BiH were facing in 1995: Dead people, displaced people, hungry and cold people, people in tension, the maimed, the orphans, those with the invisible scars on their minds and in their spirits.    The economy was devastated, and it suffers still today with heavy unemployment. There will probably always be some tensions because of the way the nation was divided between three ethnic and religious groups.   This says nothing of an increase in radical islamists entering the region since the war.  When I lived there in 1980-83, I was unaware of any radical elements in the Muslim community.  This2002 interview with Cardinal Puljić sheds some light on what happened. Have things changed since then? This is a question for journalists to ask.

Just as fighting and tensions don’t just abruptly cease with war ending agreements, the effects of any war can linger for many years, even decades.
I would humbly suggest that during that 10-15 year period after the war, the bishops of Bosnia and Herzegovina were overwhelmed with things much more important than discerning the authenticity of Medjugorje. For those of us abroad, that often seems to be a singular focus of our interest in what goes on there.  I suspect Pope Benedict felt it was best to let things remain as they were for the time being, as well,  rather than put those people through the rigors of what will be a painful decision for some no matter which way it goes.
 4. There is more than Medjugorje of concern to BiH bishops
Question: How much news do you find in English or Italian press about BiH that doesn’t involve Medjugorje? 

I ask this question because we put the Medjugorje lens on without looking at what else is happening in that region.  Cardinal Puljić said he was tired, after all these years, of spending countless hours going through information.  Now, some might think he is tired of Medjugorje, and that may very well be the case.  But the most charitable explanation is that the volume of work associated with it has been taking time away from other things he needs to work on, or making his days much longer.  I count myself among those who believe this commission was wrapping up it’s work about the time Pope Benedict XVI abdicated the throne.  What else could the Holy See do but delay completion?

I think the bishops of that nation have a story to tell about life there - one that is different from neighboring Croatia because of how it has been divided between the ethnic and religious groups.  I would love for journalists to talk to the bishops and enlighten us in English and Italian Catholic press.  Do Catholics suffer persecution there? If so, how?  How has the population of Catholics changed there since the war and what has happened with local sacramental life? How are priests and religious treated?  Do young Catholics feel they have a future there, or are they migrating to Croatia? There is much more in Croatian media, and the language barrier doesn’t help. but most bishops know a second language or can find interpreters. All of this news is largely hidden behind Medjugorje.

Also, hidden behind the news about Medjugorje, is a situation no bishop would ever want to be faced with: Members of a local religious order in open rebellion with the diocese and the Holy See itself and the numbers are not insignificant.  Yet another set of invalid “confirmations” was held last year at a parish usurped in the late 1990′s, by now former Francisans (since suspended a divinis, and removed from the Order of Friars Minor).  See my report on this from April of 2013.  Hopefully it is clear that Medjugorje is not the only thing the Holy See is concerned with in that region.

Is this connected with Medjugorje?  Perhaps it is not not directly connected, but you will find opinion pieces on many pro-Medjugorje sites, saying the bishop is at odds with the Franciscans, or persecuting them, rather than the Franciscans being at odds with a decision of the Holy See (some in open rebellion.)  Aside from that, one ought to wonder how hundreds, if not thousands of invalid sacraments, can be happening a stone’s throw from Medjugorje, and the “gospa” says nothing?

Incidentally, the Holy See document at the heart of the conflict – the 1975 decree, Romanis Pontificibus -  comes from the Congregation for the Evangelization of Peoples, on which I believe Cardinal Puljić still serves. There is a great deal of history and catechesis in the first part of that decree.

The Diocese of Mostar-Duvno is a valid source for information

One of the open wounds in the Church today – one that I hope is bandaged by Pope Francis, is the utter contempt some have for the local bishop of Mostar.  The contempt on some pro-Medjugorje sites ranges from overt, to passive-aggressive.

There is a lot of information detailing the problems the diocese has had with regards to Medjugorje, in English; and in Italian for those who don’t dismiss this as a valid source for information.  With regards to information about the rebellion of some Franciscans in the Herzegovina province, there is an entire page devoted to that at the diocese – all of it worked out with the OFM in Rome and the Holy See.   Scrolling down you will see a list of nine men dismissed from the OFM’s; and, another 18 who remain without faculties for refusing to sign a declaration of obedience to which the Franciscan Minister General and local bishop agreed, and the Holy See confirmed.  It should be noted that the majority of Franciscans in that province have cooperated.

Names and faces of the bishops of Bosnia – Herzegovina

To reporters and journalists: These are the men who lead the Church in Bosnia-Herzegovina.  Got questions? Ask them.  Are there conflicts with what you find elsewhere on the web with what they say? Take your questions to the appropriate congregation at the Holy See if you doubt what they tell you, then tell us what you learn. 
The bishops of Bosnia-Herzegovina with Apostolic Nuncio from left to right: Bishop Pero Sudar (auxiliary – Sarajevo); Bishop Ratko Perić (Mostar-Duvno/Trebinje); former Nuncio, Alessandro D’Errico; Cardinal Vinko Puljić, Sarajevo; Bishop Franjo Komarica (Banja Luka); Bishop Bishop Tomo Vukšić (Military Ordinariate of BiH); Bishop Marko Semren, OFM (auxiliary – Banja Luka)

The Bishops’ Conference of BiH has grown with the addition of the auxiliary bishops in recent years, and with the establishment of a Military Ordinariate in February of 2011.

Also noteworthy is that when Bishop Marko Semren, OFM was consecrated he became the first Franciscan bishop in the dioceses making up BiH in about 40 years.  He hails from the Bosnia Franciscan Province (there are separate provinces for Herzegovina and Bosnia). Bishop Semren is an expert on Franciscan history in the region, something that may be helpful in cutting through the stories you will find on some websites.   See my coverage here and the rather interesting homily by the Apostolic Nuncio here.

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Our Lady of Akita – Spiritual Director of Seer Passes Away

A few days ago this was reported on Spirit Daily:

Father Teji YasudaA 97-year-old priest associated with famous mystical events near Akita, Japan, died last month with what those holding vigil at his side said was the odor of sanctity.

The priest, Father Teji Yasuda, who chronicled the events, was living at what is known at St. Michael’s House of Prayer in the suburbs of Tokyo when he passed on November 22, 2013. Witnesses assert that the fragrance — often depicted as a cross between lilies and roses — was so strong that hospital personnel were baffled.

With him was the seer, Sister Agnes Sasagawa, a Handmaids-of-the-Eucharist nun who reportedly received dramatic messages from the Blessed Mother in front of a statue of Mary that investigators for the bishop affirmed had shed inexplicable tears on at least 101 occasions from January 4, 1975 until 1982. It is believed she still receives visions and locution, ostensibly from the Virgin Mary.

You can read more of the article here.

For those not familiar with the approved messages of Our Lady of Akita.  I want to present below the full history of Our Lady of Akita, the story of the seer, and the messages which contain some quite shocking warnings which I believe have in many ways are coming to fruition in our current time.

Akita-Shi, Japan 1973

A few pious women known as the Institute of the Handmaids of the Holy Eucharist were leading a quiet, hidden life of prayer in Yuzawadai just outside of Akita when they welcomed into their novitiate Sister Agnes Katsuko Sasagawa, who was then 42 years old and a convert from Buddhism. When she entered on May 12, 1973, Agnes was totally and incurably deaf, however she was blessed with various mystical favors; soon this convent would become so well known that their little chapel would attract pilgrims from around the world.

The first miraculous event at Akita occurred on June 12, 1973, only a month after the entrance of Sr. Agnes: A brilliant light shone forth from the Tabernacle. This happened several times and was often accompanied by something resembling smoke which hung around the altar. During one of these illuminations Sr. Agnes saw “. . . a multitude of beings similar to Angels who surrounded the altar in adoration before the Host.” Bishop Ito was staying at the convent to conduct a week of devotions. Sr. Agnes confided to him the circumstances of this vision, as well as all the events and apparitions that followed. Bishop Ito and the convent’s spiritual director, Rev. Teiji Yasuda, were witnesses to many of the events.

Sr. Agnes was also favored with visitations of her guardian Angel. Asked to describe the Angel, Sr. Agnes replied: “a round face, an expression of sweetness . . . a person covered with a shining whiteness like snow . . .” The guardian Angel confided various messages to the sister and often prayed with her, in addition to guiding and advising her.

On the evening of June 28, 1973, Sr. Agnes discovered on the palm of her left hand a cross-shaped wound that was exceedingly painful. On July 5, 1973, a small opening appeared in the center from which blood began to flow. Later, the pain would ease during most of the week except for Thursday nights and all day Friday, when the pain became almost unbearable.

Our Lady of AkitaThen on July 6 the guardian Angel appeared, telling Sr. Agnes: “. . . The wounds of Mary are much deeper and more sorrowful than yours. Let us go to pray together in the chapel.” After entering the chapel the Angel disappeared. Sr. Agnes then turned to the statue of Mary situated on the right side of the altar.  The statue, which is approximately three feet tall had been carved from the hard wood of the Judea tree: it is a figure of Our Lady standing before a cross, her arms at her side with the palms of her hands facing forward. Beneath her feet is a globe representing the world.

When Sr. Agnes approached the statue, she said, “I suddenly felt that the wooden statue came to life and was about to speak to me . . . She was bathed in a brilliant light . . . and at the same moment a voice of indescribable beauty struck my totally deaf ears.” Our Lady told her: “. . . Your deafness will be healed . . .” She then recited with Sr. Agnes the community prayer that had been composed by Bishop Ito. At the words “Jesus present in the Eucharist,” Mary instructed, “From now on, you will add TRULY.” Together with the Angel who again appeared, the three voices recited a consecration to the Most Sacred Heart of Jesus, TRULY present in the Holy Eucharist. Before disappearing, Our Lady asked that Sr. Agnes “pray very much for the Pope, bishops and priests . . .

The next morning, when the sisters assembled for the recitation of Lauds, they found blood on the right hand of the statue and two lines which crossed, in the middle of which was an opening from which the blood flowed. The wound matched that on the hand of Sr. Agnes except that, since the statue’s hand was smaller, its wound was smaller. It bled on the Fridays of July during the year 1973, as did the wound on the hand of Sr. Agnes.

One of the sisters wrote: “It seemed to be truly cut into flesh. The edge of the cross had the aspect of human flesh and one even saw the grain of the skin like a fingerprint. I said to myself at that moment that the wound was real . . .

Of special noteworthiness, the drops of blood ran the length of the statue’s hand, which was open and pointing downward, yet the drops never fell from the hand.

The wound on the hand of Sr. Agnes appeared on Thursday, June 28. As predicted by the guardian Angel, the wound disappeared on Friday, July 27 without leaving a trace.

The second message of Our Lady came on August 3, 1973, a First Friday, when the heavenly voice from the statue warned:

“. . . Many men in this world afflict the Lord . . . In order that the world might know His anger, the Heavenly Father is preparing to inflict a great chastisement on all mankind . . . I have prevented the coming of calamities by offering Him the sufferings of the Son on the Cross, His Precious Blood and beloved souls who console Him forming a cohort of victim souls. Prayer, penance and courageous sacrifices can soften the Father’s anger . . . know that you must be fastened to the Cross with three nails. These three nails are poverty, chastity and obedience. Of the three, obedience is the foundation .. . “ When Sr. Agnes was professed, she pronounced these three vows. Although the wound on the hand of Sr. Agnes disappeared on July 27, the wound on the hand of the statue remained until its disappearance on September 29. At that time the statue emitted a bright light. The wound had remained for three months.

While wounds in the hands of the statue bled, Bishop Ito advises that, contrary to some reports, “. ..the statue did not sweat blood or weep blood at any time.”

On the evening office of September 29, 1973, the whole community saw a brilliant light coming from the statue. Almost immediately the entire body of the statue became covered with a moisture resembling perspiration. Sr. Agnes’ guardian Angel told her, “Mary is even sadder than when she shed blood. Dry the perspiration.”

The sisters used cotton balls to collect the moisture. Following Our Lady’s message, the dazzling light that had surrounded the statue gradually disappeared.

Toward the end of May, 1974, another phenomenon occurred. While the statue’s garment and the hair retained the look of natural wood, the face, hands and feet became distinguished by a dark, reddish-brown tint. Eight years later, when the sculptor came to see the statue, he could not hide his surprise that only the visible parts of Our Lady’s body had changed color, and that the face itself had changed expression.

Then on January 4, 1975, to the amazement of the community and Fr. Yasuda, the statue of the Virgin began to weep and did so three times that day. Also witnessing these tears, in addition to the sisters, were Bishop Ito and a number of people who had joined the nuns for a New Year’s retreat. In the 10 years following, scientific studies excluded any explanation other than the supernatural.

The tears collected on the inside edge of the eyes flowed down the cheeks, collected at the edge of the garment near the throat, rolled down the folds of the garment and fell upon the globe under Our Lady’s feet.

Fr. Yasuda recorded in his book, The Tears and Message of Mary, that the statue:

“. . . had completely dried out during the years since it was made and little cracks had begun to appear. It is already miraculous if water would flow from such material, but it is still more prodigious that a liquid slightly salty, of the nature of true human tears, should have flowed precisely from the eyes.”

Eventually, Bishop Ito arranged for Professor Sagisaka, M.D., a non-Christian specialist in forensic medicine, to make a rigorous scientific examination of the three fluids, although the Bishop did not reveal their source. The results were: “The matter adhering on the gauze is human blood. The sweat and the tears absorbed in the two pieces of cotton are of human origin.” The blood was found to belong to group B and the sweat and tears to group AB. Sr. Agnes belongs to group B.

Bishop Ito was advised by the Apostolic Nuncio to seek the assistance of the Archbishop of Tokyo in creating a commission of canonical inquiry. Unfortunately, the Inquisitor who was not Catholic was named president of this group. Without any of the members visiting the convent to conduct a personal inquiry, the commission rendered an unfavorable verdict.

Unwilling to accept a negative verdict to the events he himself had witnessed, Bishop Ito asked the advice in Rome of the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith, as well as the Congregation for the Propagation of the Faith. He was then advised to form another commission to study the events from the beginning. This commission rendered a favorable verdict regarding the supernatural aspects of the events.

The tears of December 8, 1979 were filmed by a television crew at 11 o’clock in the evening, the Feast of the Immaculate Conception, and was shown on television to 12 million people throughout Japan. It is now shown by the nuns at the convent and was shown during news broadcasts throughout the world.

The sculptor of the statue, Saburo Wakasa, a non-Catholic and a citizen of Akita, was asked his reaction to the occurrences relating to the statue. He answered:

The statue of Mary was my first work connected with Christianity. Of my various statues, it is only with the statue of Mary at Yuzawadai that mysterious events occurred . . . I sculptured the whole statue of Mary, globe, and the Cross from the same piece of wood, so there are no joints . . . The wood from which I carved the statue of Mary was very dry and rather hard . . .

When questioned as to whether he regards as a “miracle” the reported shedding of tears from the statue of Mary, he replied, “It is a mystery.”

Another examination of the fluids was conducted by Dr. Sagisaka of the Department of Forensic Medicine, School of Medicine, University of Akita. The results were given on November 30, 1981 and revealed that:

“The object examined has adhering to it human liquids which belong to the blood group O.” Since the first analysis revealed that the blood belonged to group B and the sweat and tears to group AB, it has been established that the fluids belong to three different blood groups.

It is a medical fact that the blood, tears and sweat of an individual all belong to the same blood group. One fluid cannot differ in type from the other fluids of the same body. Since Sr. Agnes belonged to group B she could not have “ejected and transferred” blood or fluids belonging to group AB or O. The theory of the Inquisitor that Sr. Agnes exercised had ectoplasmic power wass thereby refuted.

On the Feast of Our Lady of Sorrows [September 15], the statue cried for the last time. Two weeks later, Sr. Agnes’ guardian Angel presented a large Bible surrounded with a brilliant light. The open Bible revealed the reference, Genesis 3:15. The Angel explained that the passage had a relationship with the tears of Mary and then continued.

. . . sin came into the world by a woman and it is also by a woman that salvation came to the world . . .

The lachrymations number 101, and they took place at irregular intervals from January 4, 1975 until September 15, 1981. The first 1 is Eve, the second, Our Lady and the 0 represents the eternal Holy Trinity.

According to the records kept by the sisters, the number of persons witnessing the tears went unrecorded on five occasions. However, all the other times they were witnessed by no fewer than ten persons, and other lachrymations were witnessed by various numbers of people, sometimes as many as 46, 55 and, for the last lachrymation, 65 people. Some of the witnesses were non-Christians and some were prominent Buddhists, including the mayor of the city.

On October 13, the anniversary of the Miracle of the Sun at Fatima, 1973, Sr. Agnes heard the beautiful voice speaking from the statue once more: “The work of the devil will infiltrate even into the Church in such a way that one will see cardinals opposing cardinals, bishops against other bishops. The priests who venerate me will be scorned and opposed by their confreres, churches and altars will be sacked. The Church will be full of those who accept compromises and the devil will press many priests and consecrated souls to leave the service of the Lord. The demon would be especially implacable against souls consecrated to God. The thought of the loss of so many souls is the cause of my sadness. If sins increase in number and gravity, there will be no longer any pardon for them.

She continued, “As I told you, if people do not repent and better themselves, the Father will inflict a terrible punishment on all humanity. It will be a punishment greater than the Flood, such as one will never have seen before. Fire will fall from the sky and will wipe out a great part of humanity, the good as well as the bad, sparing neither priests nor faithful. The survivors will find themselves so desolate that they will envy the dead. The only arms which will remain for you will be the Rosary and the Sign left by my Son. Each day recite the prayers of the Rosary. With the Rosary pray for the Pope, the bishops and the priests.”

The statue wept for the last time on September 15, Feast of Our Lady of Sorrows.

Sr. Agnes was totally and incurably deaf when she entered the community, having lost her hearing on March 16, 1973. Sister was able to speak, and understood spoken messages by lip reading. As predicted by her guardian Angel, she temporarily regained her hearing on October 13, 1974. Deafness returned on March 7, 1975. Her hearing was permanently restored on May 30, 1982, as predicted by Our Lady during the first message of July 6, 1973. Both healings occurred instantaneously during Benediction of the Blessed Sacrament. Sr. Agnes is today in sound health, except for the rheumatism that has affected her hands.

A canonical law regarding the judgment of a Marian apparition was issued in 1978. According to a Vatican official: “. . . the authority to hand down a conclusion regarding the authenticity of any Marian apparition is given canonically to the ordinary (the bishop) of the local diocese where the apparition took place . . .”

In his pastoral letter dated April 22, 1984, Bishop John Ito, the Ordinary of the Diocese of Niigata, wrote that having been given directives in this regard, “I authorize throughout the entire diocese of which I am charged, the veneration of the Holy Mother of Akita.” The Bishop noted that the events are only a matter of private revelation, and are not points of doctrine. The Bishop also mentioned in his pastoral letter that he had known Sr. Agnes Sasagawa for 10 years. “She is a woman sound in spirit, frank and without problems; she has always impressed me as a balanced person. Consequently the messages she says that she has received did not appear to me to be in any way the result of imagination or hallucination.

Four years later, on June 20, 1988, during Bishop lto’s visit to Rome, the Sacred Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith approved the contents of the pastoral letter.

Bishop Ito’s official recognitions of the occurrences and the Madonna’s messages were reported in the October, 1988 issue of the magazine 30 Days. In the August 1990 issue, Cardinal Ratzinger is quoted as saying that “there are no objections to the conclusion of the pastoral letter.” Cardinal Ratzinger has invited the Bishop to continue to inform him about the pilgrimages and conversions.

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Rush Limbaugh -vs- Pope Francis – An Apology is Needed

This article was written by Matt Abbott, please visit his site here: http://ift.tt/1fOxps1

Pope Francis recently issued the apostolic exhortation “The Joy of the Gospel.” Click here to read it.

Conservative radio personality Rush Limbaugh isn’t pleased with the document, calling it “pure Marxism coming out of the mouth of the pope.” (Source)

I sought comment on the matter from Father John Trigilio Jr., Ph.D., Th.D., president of the Confraternity of Catholic Clergy. Below is Father’s analysis (slightly edited).


I often listen to Rush Limbaugh and find him to be an intelligent man and an erudite conservative journalist. He uses common sense and logic to expose the fallacious arguments of liberal progressives. Unfortunately, he himself has fallen into a trap by which he erroneously extrapolates a false premise from the recent papal document from Pope Francis.

Evangelii Gaudium (The Joy of the Gospel) is an apostolic exhortation issued on November 24, 2013. While not an ex cathedra infallible document, it nevertheless contains ordinary papal magisterial teaching that demands submission of mind and will by faithful Catholics.

Rush is uncharacteristically inaccurate in his quotations. Pope Francis did not criticize unfettered capitalism; he used the phrase unfettered consumerism. The late and great Father Richard John Neuhaus defined consumerism as:

‘[P]recisely, the consuming of life by the things consumed. It is living in a manner that is measured by having rather than being. As Pope John Paul II makes clear, consumerism is hardly the sin of the rich. The poor, driven by discontent and envy, may be as consumed by what they do not have as the rich are consumed by what they do have. The question is not, certainly not most importantly, a question about economics. It is first and foremost a cultural and moral problem requiring a cultural and moral remedy.’

Capitalism is an economic and political ideology, whereas consumerism is a personal and individual ideology. The former is focused on a free market; the latter is obsessed with the acquisition of goods in and of themselves. Blessed John Paul II made the distinction that communism and consumerism are far extremes, and both threaten human freedom. One denies the right to access of necessary goods; the other deifies materialism and promotes avarice, greed and envy. A free market system, on the other hand, treats human beings equally, not giving undo advantage to card-carrying members of the Communist Party while penalizing those who express some political dissent.

What Pope Francis, Pope Benedict, Pope John Paul, Pope Leo and others have consistently been saying and teaching, however, is that the individual person is a moral agent. He must answer to God for what he did or did not do to help his neighbor in need. The Gospel of Matthew ends by separating the sheep from goats based on what each individual did or did not do to feed the hungry, give drink to the thirsty, shelter the homeless, care for the sick, and so on. It is not a judgment of government policies or agencies; it is a personal judgment on each one of us.

That said, besides personal acts of Christian charity, it is logical and reasonable, prudent and necessary to pool resources and, even for the state, to help in cases where the most needy and most urgent cases are helped. Yet no pope ever promoted, nor called for, a welfare state that perpetually cares for the poor. The ultimate goal is to enable the poor to rise above poverty and reach a level of dignity commensurate with their human dignity.

Access to necessary goods is a natural right. That does not mean, however, that the natural moral law requires the poor to become enslaved to the state by permanently keeping them dependent. Rush calls Pope Francis a Socialist at best and a Communist at worst. Does this sound like a commie comment?

‘Welfare projects, which meet certain urgent needs, should be considered merely temporary responses.’ (no. 202)

Contrary to what many modern public school textbooks currently tell our children, capitalism was actually created during the high Middle Ages and, as Michael Novak wrote in 2003, Catholicism is what created it. While feudalism sustained Christendom from the fall of the Roman Empire (476 A.D.) through the so-called Dark Ages, during the 12th to 14th centuries, the middle class arose thanks to capitalism, which eventually replaced feudalism. Medieval guilds and religious orders, such as the Cistercians, became contemporary entrepreneurs of their time.

‘They mastered rational cost accounting, plowed all profits back into new ventures, and moved capital around from one venue to another, cutting losses where necessary, and pursuing new opportunities when feasible. They dominated iron production in central France and wool production (for export) in England. They were cheerful and energetic. Being few in number, the Cistercians needed labor-saving devices. They were a great spur to technological development. Their monasteries ‘were the most economically effective units that had ever existed in Europe, and perhaps in the world, before that time.’ (Novak)

Thomas Woods’ How the Catholic Church Built Western Civilization has an entire chapter titled “The Church and Economics” in which he, too, proposes that money was not an artificial product of government (crown or parliament), but a result of a voluntary process between merchants. Barter became more and more impractical when dealing with perishable items and dealing with transporting goods over long distances. Religious orders like the Cistercians devised accounting systems by which goods could be bought and sold between fellow monks, and this was duplicated by lay merchants who participated in the process.

While the secular states were governed by aristocracies and monarchies, and while the Church herself is hierarchical, it is still Catholic doctrine that all men and women are created in the image of God and by baptism are considered children of God. That spiritual equality was translated into an economic equality, which transcended the political. The emerging middle class came from the peasant class. They did so because their faith taught them they were equal in the eyes of God and therefore had equal opportunities to improve their material situation. Those who could not – the destitute poor, the lame, widowed and orphaned – relied on the Christian charity of the nobility and the emerging middle class.

It was the Church who literally created the colleges and universities, hospitals and orphanages, and who ran the poor houses and soup kitchens. The secular state (government) did not create these institutions; religious orders and dioceses did. Christian charity motivated those who had more to help those who had less.

When you read Evangelii Gaudium in its entirety, it continues the papal magisterium found in Rerum Novarum, Quadragesimo Anno, Mater et Magistra, Gaudium et Spes, Centesimus Annus, and, of course, the Catechism of the Catholic Church.

The very reason a nation has banking and finance laws is that human beings are not perfect. Original sin affects everyone, and some people, be they CEOs, CFOs, bankers or brokers, sometimes make bad choices that produce bad effects that cause great harm to many innocent people. I know of no conservative or liberal, Republican, Democrat, or Libertarian who would advocate the repeal of laws barring insider trading.

We need laws to maintain some parameters on banks and stock brokers to protect people from abuse and exploitation. Republicans and Democrats dispute the length, breadth and depth of such legal regulations, but even a free market has some borders that cannot be ignored. Limited government is still very different from no government. Some, even if minimal, legislation is needed since not everyone acts prudently or fairly or for pristine motives.

That said, it was totally unfair and inaccurate of Rush to attack Pope Francis for addressing a letter as head of the Roman Catholic Church to his more than one billion members. The pontiff was merely reiterating consistent Church teaching that supports a free market, but also reminds the moral obligation to act responsibly, honestly and prudently. No one can command generosity but it is something which should be encouraged and promoted. Welfare dependency helps neither the individual nor the nation. Some welfare is necessary for those who cannot be helped by private or non-profit charitable organizations. However, the goal is always to help move those into economic independence and become self-sufficient.

Laborem Exercens teaches us the sanctity of human work. The Catechism tells us that the Catholic Church always believes justice and solidarity are essential and necessary to human freedom. Justice is distributive, commutative and social. Unfettered consumerism is not synonymous with capitalism. A free market system respects human freedom and autonomy. Consumerism is an abuse and an extreme. Communism wrongly treated human labor as a means of production for the state. Consumerism wrongly treats the product of human labor and of the free market as the final source of happiness and fulfillment.

Material things, while helpful, do not produce enduring and true happiness. They make life easier, more comfortable and more convenient. Technology helps cure sickness and disease and helps makes life less a burden. All Pope Francis is warning is that the possession and acquisition of goods is not salvific, nor does it bring lasting joy. Pleasure is temporary, whereas joy can be eternal.

The pontiff is not forcing any nation or government to abandon capitalism; he’s not advocating socialism let alone communism. He is, however, reminding Catholics all over the globe that we must buy and sell prudently while using our consciences. In that light, I see no reason for Rush to take offense or issue with Pope Francis.

I highly urge Rush to read Father Robert Sirico’s Defending the Free Market and John Horvat’s Return to Order. Mr. Horvat does a splendid job explaining the notion of frenetic intemperance, which is a cousin of unfettered consumerism. Father Sirico precisely shows that freedom requires a free market and that greed is no friend of capitalism. Rather, greed flourishes under socialism.

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Answered Prayers – Cancer Miracle

Twelve years ago when I worked at the Walmart store in Warrenton Virginia as a Photo Specialist I made a new friend of a frequent customer.  The customers name was Clifford K.  He asked that I just call him Cliff Cliff.  Unfortunately soon after I left Walmart in 2003 I lost contact with Cliff.  It wasn’t until around December of last year that I ran into Cliff again.  This time I was working in a Staples store (worst job I have ever had) and I saw Cliff walk through the door and my spirits instantly lifted.  We reunited after so many years of not being in contact and I began helping him and his dear wife with various IT related work.  Cliffs wife Michelle was undergoing chemo therapy and was in a lot of pain and struggling to keep her spirits up.  I began to pray hard for Michelle and I’ve sent out more than a few blog posts asking for your prayers as well.  On October 2nd I started a 9 day novena to Blessed Francis Seelos and I prayed for a healing for Michelle.

This morning I received a call from Cliff and he said he had something really important to share with me.  For the past 3 weeks Michelle had been in quite a bit of pain and she and Cliff both felt that the cancer was getting worse.  Unknowing to me, Cliff revealed that the doctors had given her a 10-20% chance of success with her cancer treatment and that she was on her last dosage because nothing else had worked.  On 11/27 (Wednesday), Cliff and Michelle went to the doctor to get the results of the pain that she was suffering and much to their amazement and to the shock of the doctor, the pain was from her tumor dying and shrinking.  The doctor said that he had no explanation for it, that something like this happening at the stage Michelle was at, was unknown and he hadn’t seen something like this happen before!!  The doctor is putting her on another 3 week regimen of the same chemo dosage and the prognosis looks great.  Everything seems to have turned itself around for Michelle and Cliff.  Prayers have been answered and I think Blessed Seelos may have had something to do with this, after all I think many of his miracles involved people who were suffering from cancer.

Please continue to keep Michelle in your prayers.  I am going to start another Novena in the next few days for her and I’ll send out a notification and invite you in on what I hope will be a major prayer chain that will rain our intercessions into the heavenly realm for her healing.

God Bless!

Michael



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6 Deacons Ordained for the Arlington Diocese

Arlington diocese deacons

 

Congratulations to the 6 new Deacons who were ordained yesterday for the Arlington Virginia Diocese! I worked with Dr. Scott Ross and his wife at the House of Mercy, from what I recall he is a good man.  My prayers go out to all the new Deacons, may God Bless them all!  For more info please visit: http://ift.tt/1kLToC6

Here is a little more info on each of the deacons, clicking their names will take you to a bio for each person.

John P. Allen

Steven M. Clifford

Edward C. Gliot

Brian R. Majewski

Christopher G. Moore

Scott A. Ross



Cardinal O’Malley Gets his Baptism Reaffirmed by Female Minister

O'Malley's Methodist baptism
O’Malley’s Methodist baptism
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I saw this as it hit the news a few days ago and the image has caused quite a disturbance across the blogosphere and news worldwide.  Just peachy.  So what is the good Cardinal going to do next?  Is he going to invite this lady or another ‘ordained’ woman to join him on the altar for a concelebration of the Eucharist?  I saw over at Rorate CAELI they said that Cardinal O’Malley was practicing the Latin Mass during the Pontificate of Pope Emeritus Benedict XVI and now under Pope Francis he has gone to the other side of the see-saw and ‘invited’ a female minister to reaffirm his baptism.  It’s sickening.  Ecumenism when done correctly is good.  But when it is presented such as this.. it does way more damage to the Church.  Here is a quote from the local paper that picked up the story and commentary from the female minister:
“What moved me was not so much that I was anointing him,” she said. “It was him being willing to accept that from my hand – to ask me, as a woman in ministry, to do that.”
A Rhode Island native, the Rev. [Anne] Robertson was the only female clergy member who assisted at a special 50th anniversary worship service at Sudbury United Methodist Church.
As part of Sunday’s anniversary service, the 500 who filled Sudbury United Methodist to overflowing were invited to receive a drop of consecrated water on their forehead and be told, “Remember your baptism and be thankful.” The ritual resembles the ceremonial receiving of ashes on Ash Wednesday, but isn’t a formal United Methodist sacrament.
Cardinal O’Malley and New England United Methodist Bishop Sudarshana Devadhar led the ritual in the sanctuary. The Rev. Robertson and a Catholic priest were on their way with small bowls of water to a side room, for others watching the service on a large-screen TV.
She paused with the priest at the cardinal’s pew, so they could receive the baptism water from Cardinal O’Malley. The next moment, the cardinal quietly asked the Rev. Robertson to administer the water for him.
“My heart immediately went to my throat,” she said. “To be asked that by the man who might be pope someday – I was stunned. I was choking back tears for hours.”

My heart went to my throat as well when I read the above article and statements.  Beyond ridiculous.
Pray for our Church!
God Bless,
Michael

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

New Blog! www.monk2be.com

Hello,

I should have posted his months ago.  I am now blogging from a new location.  Please come and join me at http://www.monk2be.com

See you there!

God Bless!

Michael

Sunday, December 05, 2010

Donations

I hate to blog about this, but it is something that I need to ask.

I know that it is a tough time economically for everyone.  As a Postulant with a religious community, I find myself needing many things and not having the money to purchase the necessities of life.  I would like to offer something in exchange for your generosity, I will keep each and every one of you in my prayers.  Please attach a prayer request with your donation.

Thank You!  Donate Here

Prayer from the Heart

This past month has been filled with many sufferings.  However, the graces that I have received during these moments of sorrow, have been plentiful and heart warming.  I often find myself in the chapel with a burning desire to sit before Our Lord in silence.  Last week I was kneeling before the tabernacle asking God to open my heart to interior prayer when I heard these words flow out from my heart:


Oh Jesus, I throw myself at thy feet
I am a sinful and sorrowful soul
I lack charity for others and I lack peace of heart
I am sending my dear guardian angel to bring a fragment of my soul to lay before your throne
Though, I am so unworthy to lie within your presence
I ask that you take my uncleanliness and purify it
Make my soul as white as snow
As pure as the mantle of thy Mother
Set it on fire with your divine love
....
Jesus, I wish for you to cleanse my eyes of all they have witnessed
My ears of all they have heard
My tongue of all it's spoken
My heart of all it's darkness
And my soul of it's disease
....
I give you my mind, so it will only think of you
I give you my tongue so it will only speak your words
I give you my heart to cleave as thy wish
I give you my eyes to only see your face in everyone I meet
and I give you my ears so they will only hear what you wish them to hear
....
I open myself up to you
Every channel and portal, I throw open to welcome your graces
Fill me with your divine love, peace, and joy
Create in me a tabernacle fit to hold your precious body and blood
I beg of you to have mercy on me
Send down your Holy Spirit and let your light be my light
I am yours and everything that I have is yours
Do with me as thy will.

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I then meditated on these words and let them sink in.  This is one of my first experiences with such a prayer coming from the heart.  I hope it is not the last.

Saturday, November 06, 2010

Persecutions - How to deal with them

Today in class we were discussing persecutions and how to deal with them when they enter our lives.  Life when lived well presents many opportunities to suffer through various persecutions, how we react to these determines how efficacious they are towards our spiritual life.  Sometimes when we least expect it, we will encounter a persecution from a family member, loved one, friend, or someone we don't even know.  As long as you are standing by truth and the teachings of the Church you will know interiorly that you are in the right and that the suffering that your experiencing can be offered up to help bring grace into the lives of someone who may really need it at that particular moment.

Just today I was persecuted by someone I never met because I made a stand against something this person had a different opinion on.  This week during a mass with Cardinal Rigali, he spoke on how to respond to someone that is persecuting you.  He said that we must respond with charity, no matter how insulting the person is or angry in their message to us.  It is our duty as Catholic's to respond with love, for it is through love that we will open their hearts and minds to the will of God.

Love as Christ would love, Forgive as Christ forgives, and Pray as Christ prays.

Friday, October 29, 2010

When it Rains it Pours!

You know what they say, when it rains it pours?  It's a proven fact and this week has been a great example of what happens when a hurricane of bad news just hit's you right on the head.   This has been one of my toughest weeks yet in the Seminary.  To be honest with myself, I have to say that I never really learned how to study and these last 2 months I have really struggled to learn a good pattern of study and now I think I have finally found one that works for me.  Unfortunately, I discovered this new study habit only a week before midterms.  That being said, I did study my butt off for my midterms and 3 of them I felt I did very well on.

After a week full of trials and disappointments, I was looking forward to today when I would get back the test results for a class that I feel I did very well in grade wise.  What I got was a complete shocker and I'm just at a loss for words.  I'm trying to compartmentalize this new disappointment on top of everything else that has happened this week.  I look forward to next week, the Seminary will be having 40 hrs of adoration, which will give me adequate time to rest, spend time with our Lord, and hopefully forget about all the pain from this week.

Please pray for me, that I will be given the strength to handle all trials I am being sent and will be sent in the future.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Wanderings of a Pilgrim living within the confines of a Monastery

I have now been in the order for a little over 2 months and what a journey I have been on!  It is amazing how much one can go through upon entering a new place and being introduced to new experiences. 

Fr. Gould mentioned to my Mom a few weeks ago that there is only 1 Catholic Priest that has been made a saint, however with religious there are many.  At first I was incredulous, however, after living in this life, I can totally see how if one perseveres there are many opportunities to reach the heights of sanctity.  There are many different people living in community, and each has a differenct personality and sometimes they can rub you the wrong way, which takes time and patience to learn to deal with and prayer to love them all the more.  I can only imagine how crazy I make some of them with my weird idiosyncricies! =)

As one brother once told me when I was annoyed one day.  "There are saints and there are saint-makers"... How True!!! =)  I hope that I am a saint and not a saint maker!

I must say that this life is absolutely wonderful.. don't get me wrong, sometimes I wish I was back home in my comfort zone.  However, this life is truly great, my brothers are good men all trying to serve and love the Lord and my life is one filled with prayer, joy, peace, and happiness.  I have had mystical experiences and close encounters with the Lord here and I hope that God will continue to bless my vocation and help me to persevere to the Novitiate House in LeRoy, NY next year.

May Our Lady of Divine Mercy Bless you!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

The Sinner's Practical Guide to Sainthood

As a young child I loved to read the lives of the saints and all their heroic adventures and the amazing things they did.  One question always remained in my mind, how does one become a saint?  One thing that I saw consistently through each of these stories was that each person had a deep prayer life and a filial love for God and his Holy Mother.

Another virtue that I saw in each of these gentle souls was a depth of love for their fellow man and a generous nature in which they truly loved each person regardless of status in society, wealth, or cleanliness.  Many of these men and women lived very poor existences and relied upon the generous nature of others for support, food, and clothing.  I also noticed upon further reading that some of these great saints endured great mortifications to their bodies in order to mortify their bodies of it's sinfulness.  A passage stands out in my mind from one of the readings long ago "The soul should never be a slave to the body, instead the body, should be a slave to the soul".  That in it's essence, in order to reach peace with ones spirituality, the body needs to be mortified and not given into over every little whim or desire.

When I was 20, a Priest from Holy Angels Catholic Church in Mt. Airy, NC told a story one day about a young man from the parish who wanted to be a saint.  This young man had read a story about a saint who dug through trash and ate rotten food as a penance and offering towards God to help save souls.  One Sunday morning, this Priest heard some noise out behind his house, it sounded like an animal was going through his trash.  He grabbed a broom and stepped out the backdoor and switched on the light to find this young man on his knees with a small pile of items including rotten apples, tomatoes, and other rotting food that Father had put out for the trash man.  He was bewildered and asked the young man what the devil he was doing, he was surprised with the answer he was given and then invited him into his house where they had a nice chat.  He told the young man that the path to sainthood wasn't paved in rotten food.  What was done in the 14th century and worked for one saint who was called to live that life wasn't exactly what this young man needed to do in order to reach heaven and sainthood.  He explained that we are all called to be saints, however, we become saints by living the lives that God called us to live.  Each of us are different, some are married and through the married life they are given crosses to carry.  Carrying those crosses and living their lives devoted to God and making sacrifices will lead a person seeking saintliness into a holy life.  In all the paths of life that we are called, whether it be the married, consecrated, or single life, we are all called to become saints without having to dig through someone's trash.

Years later, I found myself in the same predicament this young man had entered into, just in a different way.  As my faith began to grow deeper, I began to study the lives of the saints and the different paths of mortification that they did.  After finding several references to hair shirts, coarse clothing, and bindings.. I came across the cilice.  Oh, what a tool this looked like.  It was a sharp chain that a person could put around their arm or leg to inflict pain that you would then offer up and sacrifice for.  I thought that sounded pretty easy to do, if I didn't like it, then I would just take it off and try something different.  I searched for weeks for a cilice and couldn't find anything.  Finally I came across a Christian site in Spain that was offering a cilice for a good sum of money, I forked out the change, I figured it was a good investment towards my sainthood which was practically on order.  A week later, I got my package and eagerly ripped it open to find a beautiful gold colored spiked chain that looked like the spike strips used in high speed police chases.  I sat down in my chair and eagerly wrapped the chain around my upper leg right below the knee cap and then tied the leather strips together.  It was painful, I found myself staring at this thing and just waiting for the super white halo to plop on my head as if this was the last thing needed in order to earn my wings.  A few minutes went by and I decided to stand up and take a walk around with it on.  As I jumped to my feet, a searing realization entered my mind, all the blood that was trapped int he sitting position shot up and as my leg expanded, I came to an even more painful realization that I now had a chain of practical barbwire wrapped around my leg with the pressure growing stronger every second.  I tried to walk, but it was to painful, so I bent down to try and undue it and again came to a shocking discovery that the pressure had caused the metal bond in a fashion that I couldn't get, besides that I noticed a few holes beginning to bleed and that was when I knew I had to get it off!  I ended up half jumping, half dragging my painful leg and body over to the garage and tool box to get the pliers.  It took a few moments to get it off, but it felt like ages had gone by.  The pain was mind numbing.

The lesson I learned as I sat back down in my chair and stared at this simple chain was... that sainthood doesn't happen because of something that we do.  It happens, because of the life that we live and how we live that life in regards to our love and faith in God. I could chop off my toe and say it was for God.  That doesn't make me saint.  However, living my life totally for God and doing his will when it is against my own and doing things because they are the right things to do and not because I think it will get me something.. THAT is in it's most basic form, the Sinners Guide to Sainthood.  The picture at the top of this post is my cilice, I found it this week while going through some old boxes.